Monday, October 16, 2006

Ecstasy and Agony

Doesn’t it seem sometimes when life is just hitting the high notes that the walls come crashing down upon you? This seems to be a theme for me in recent times, and one that has been very painful.

This weekend was a wonderful one, a weekend I will remember for a long time. I have made a new friend, a woman and a very special one. We went up to Niagara Falls, did a bit of gambling (we lost), walked around the falls, ate some good meals, and even headed up to Niagara on the Lake. I originally was attracted, but we have settled into a good friendship, no, a great friendship, and I couldn’t be happier.

She’s a kindred spirit, not only because we like and dislike so many of the same things, but because we see the world in the same way, have similar senses of humor, similar philosophies, and in many ways she’s wiped away so much of the hurt that has tainted the past few years of my life. What has developed may not have been what I originally hoped for, but it is more than I could have ever expected!

Also over the weekend, the radio station finally went back on the air. What a relief to hear that, finally, after two weeks, we are broadcasting again. Everything is running off of my computer now, which will hopefully prevent more of these long-lasting breakdowns. And the project, BigDawgRadio, which I have put so much time and energy into, survives, lifting a great weight off my shoulders.

I went into today feeling great, like life was finally turning a better direction. Ah, how short lived!

I went to a meeting today, and was confronted by a person who’s been a good friend, a nice person, a really positive influence in my life. Evidently I’ve offended her greatly, and she wants nothing to do with me. I sent her a nice email, explaining that I didn’t know what I had done, but that I’m sorry for it, and how strongly I feel about her. She wrote back that she refused to read it, and would not want to hear from me again.

Maybe it’s a cosmic balance, than when so much goes right, something must go wrong. Perhaps I did something in making the first two things work to make the third situation collapse completely. Or it might be just timing, the way things work out sometimes, coincidence rearing its ugly head. But sometimes I just wish that, even for a little while, things would just stay good, that the highs would not be followed by the lows.

Maybe I’m asking for too much!

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